Category: death

“love” is trusting that the other has some knowledge that i do not have “love” is being thirsty for that knowledge whatever it is “love” is asking for that knowledge to be shared “love” is ……

October 2025To the person who has the responsibility to consider my file and my manuscript letterBonjour,i undersigned gregoire ausgraben makes the formal request today that EXIT accepts to medically assist me towards my death and during my dying, as soon as i decide it is time to depart. i am a member of your organization…

i report weeks of struggle with my skin. it can’t find its balance anymore and this means that i constantly vibrate between the desire to die, terror, and efforts to access my own spiritual beauty. sometimes i can see my beauty, my male energy, my desire to give my teachings, but mostly, i am in…

i do not have the courage to try to come back into your reality. i am on alert, constantly. something in me is extremely sad and my left foot hurts, red, swollen, as if it wanted to be a second heart because the first one is not sufficient. no, no, these are not only words.…

i am terrified.alone.where are you?

PTSD on death smell. august 14, 7am, time for morning salutations to the 4 directions. i go out. there is a very bad smell. maybe it is from a farmer not so far and they are applying an animal-based fertilizer. or, maybe it is from the construction site next door. i kneel in front of…

death 3: Nitschke i have just read The mists surrounding the Sarco: A reconstruction full of ethical dilemmas, political beliefs and legal conundrums. by Effting, Door Maud, Kraak, Haro and Verwiel, Erik, with photography by Linelle Deunk and Veerle Haan. The Volksrant, October 26, 2024.and i am crying. i bow to the exquisite philosophy behind…

death 2: my own”No wonder we cannot appreciate the really central Kafka joke: that the horrific struggle to establish a human self results in a self whose humanity is inseparable from the horrific struggle. That our endless and impossible journey toward home is in fact our home.” – David Foster Wallace in “Consider the Lobster…

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death 1: it is not easy to die. here is some digging into legal and medical frames in canada and switzerland.i started to talk about assisted suicide quite a while back and this was in toronto where i lived from 1998 to 2022. reminder: “in canada, assisted suicide became legal in 2015 after a legal…