Category: death

my letter and that of my doctor are in an envelope to be sent to EXIT Suisse romande tomorrow. i truly hope that my request for assisted suicide will be accepted and then, the approval will be valid for one year. i will have my magic button to depart where i to need it. seems…

“love” is trusting that the other has some knowledge that i do not have “love” is being thirsty for that knowledge whatever it is “love” is asking for that knowledge to be shared “love” is ……

October 2025To the person who has the responsibility to consider my file and my manuscript letterBonjour,i undersigned gregoire ausgraben makes the formal request today that EXIT accepts to medically assist me towards my death and during my dying, as soon as i decide it is time to depart. i am a member of your organization…

i report weeks of struggle with my skin. it can’t find its balance anymore and this means that i constantly vibrate between the desire to die, terror, and efforts to access my own spiritual beauty. sometimes i can see my beauty, my male energy, my desire to give my teachings, but mostly, i am in…

i do not have the courage to try to come back into your reality. i am on alert, constantly. something in me is extremely sad and my left foot hurts, red, swollen, as if it wanted to be a second heart because the first one is not sufficient. no, no, these are not only words.…

i am terrified.alone.where are you?

this text is written from one deep bottom of my PTSD reality.it is mine. it should be valid too. some of my PTSD has to do with red dots on my skin.when these dots trigger me, i enter into a physiological shock. when the triggers last, i stay at the threshold of shocks and i…

it is the first time that i find myself closer to those disabled activists in canada who see MAID as the cheapest healthcare. my PTSD triggers are not anything about war, but the terror i am in when triggered, like now, has the texture of a constantly repeated physiological choc. over and over. internal structure…

PTSD on death smell. august 14, 7am, time for morning salutations to the 4 directions. i go out. there is a very bad smell. maybe it is from a farmer not so far and they are applying an animal-based fertilizer. or, maybe it is from the construction site next door. i kneel in front of…

death 3: Nitschke i have just read The mists surrounding the Sarco: A reconstruction full of ethical dilemmas, political beliefs and legal conundrums. by Effting, Door Maud, Kraak, Haro and Verwiel, Erik, with photography by Linelle Deunk and Veerle Haan. The Volksrant, October 26, 2024.and i am crying. i bow to the exquisite philosophy behind…